It’s been too long since my last confessions!

* Today I left the house and forgot to put on the pads to prevent breastmilk from leaking all over my shirt. I was a pretty sight walking around with round wet circles on the front of my shirt.

* Almost every time I pick up Belle and she holds her little head so nice and straight I feel a sharp stab in my heart. Feels so unfair to Nathan.

* I’m enjoying having to buy larger bras

* I smell like curdled milk right now

* I have bathed in poopy water 3 times in the last 2 days (she pooped while we were in the bath together), had to change shirts because I was covered in spit-up 5 times in the last 2 days, been peed on once in the last 2 days..and forgotten all about it with just 1 precious smile.

* My mission this week is to start exercising again. It’s time!


  1. I got a good laugh at the wet shirt, I never forget mine, after a couple kids I don’t forget anymore. I know how you feel about our kids, I cried and cried tonight trying to get Ryland to bed, he had a rough night and was unhappy. Vera is doing stuff that Ryland is unable to do and it does hurt. I want so bad for Ryland not have to struggle.

  2. I am so glad, Marcela, that you mentioned your feelings when Belle manage something that Nathan not. It puzzled me when I was thinking about the second child. That such mind would not be fair also to the healthy one. I thought I am crazy to have such thoughts ahead. Simply I was stuck and did not feel well about it. However, my main problem is that I have not got over Oliver’s birth. I am glad I can read other comments regarding that. It must be also very difficult and painful to go through this process.

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