Light…

…at the end of the tunnel.

Nathan is healthier. No more puke, no more diarrhea. A little snot, not so bad. He’s eating like crazy, happy, content.

I smell health looming over the horizon. Can it be?

And energy. For the last 2 days, I’ve had energy again. I feel balanced. I feel peaceful. Amazing, for someone who was daydreaming of a vacation in prison. Who would scheme for the least worst crime that could land me in prison for a few days so I could finally take a break.

Instead I feel good. Balanced. I’m on the road to health and for the first time I can believe I will actually arrive at my destination.

Everything that Dr. Dituro is treating me for is improving. The candida. Stress. Parasites. Adrenal & hormonal imbalances. It’s weird to know what it’s like to sit in quiet, peaceful meditation. How cool huh. And the mental clarity. I can think straight again! I can trouble shoot and problem solve. I can see clearly now! Incredible.

Clarity. I know what we need.

So today I sat down and wrote out everything I wanted to do in a day with Nathan. I had the time, clarity and energy to schedule it out. Trouble shoot. Organize.

And with this level of organization and clarity – I can do this! I know I can do this! And this feeling of hope and confidence..wow!

Here’s an example of what I worked out today:

Monday
7 am – wakes up
7 – 7:30 – stretches and massage
7:30 – 8 am – Beckman exercises / breakfast / ABR machine chest / switch
8 – 8:30 am – 5 masking /ABR machine solar plexus / mud packing
8:30 – 9:30 – PT/OT – with hart, lite, or kidwalk
9:30 – 9:45am – Beckman / snack
9:45 – 10:45 – ABR chest / ABR machine abdomen
10:45 – 11:45 – nap in hyperbaric chamber
12 – 1:30 – Vital Speech & Swallow (have lunch ready in his lunch bag)
1:30 – 2:30 – ABR neck
2:30 – 3:30 – AIAHP
3:30 – 4 – Beckman / snack
4 – 5 – ABR jaw / ABR machine abdomen
5 – 5:30 – 5 masking / ABR machine solar plexus
5:30 – 6 – Beckman / dinner / switch / ABR machine chest
6 – 6:30 – Communications session with toys and choices

I did this for every day of the week. No wonder I couldn’t do everything I wanted to do. There is physically, literally no time! And every night I’d go to bed guilty because I didn’t get it all done. No wonder. But now I know. Now I can.

Anyways. Light. I see light at the end of the tunnel.

And I look towards it with hope.