A little piece of heaven

…was a hard day. I’m tired beyond words. 1.5 months of very little sleep and on-demand feeding and nurturing is really wearing me out. I’ve had a terrible eye infection for a week now, and awful migraines. Today’s migraine was awful. I’m worn out.

Nathan has been a whiney mess lately. Is he jealous? Is he teething? He is a bit congested – is he feeling ill? I have no idea and he has no way to tell me. If I weren’t worn out I’d deal, but whining and worn out are a bad combination.

Belle’s been a handful lately. Have I spoiled her rotten already? She’ simpossible to put down. She’s mostly happy in someone’s arms, screechy anywhere else, including swings and cribs and bouncers. Her digestive system is a mess. She is allergic to dairy, eggs and brown rice. And I am allergic to gluten and dairy. If I eat any of these things, she gets the most horrible, horrible, horrible diaper rash. And I mean skin red, swollen and cracked diaper rash. And she gets horribly gas and spits up. So I have to keep her upright after she eats, and then try to burp her which takes forever, and then by the time she finally burps she also poops and then she’s hungry again and it all starts all over again.

And even with all that I’ve been happy…except today…because I’m worn out..and I want to fly fly away to an island where no one takes anything from me, where I don’t feel like ripe fruit ready for the picking…

I’m worn out.

Life in the Andrew house is different these days… it has a fairy dust sprinkled all around it… our little tinkerbelle has flittered into our lives to bring much joy, much closure, much happiness, much peace.

But now she’s over a month old..no longer an infant… in just 4 weeks she’s become a baby…I look at her in wonder and all of a sudden I understand when people say, it goes by so fast….Nathan is our time-defyer, time passes, days, weeks, months, years..and he doesn’t change…he is the same Nathan today that he was almost 4 years ago….and then I look at the chubby cheeks of my little tinker and watch as day by day, hour by hour her body strengthens, her neck tonifies, her brain awakes with wonder. At first I thought, it’s not fair….but today I know it all is as it was meant to be.

We pulled out this hidden treasure that has been collecting dust in the garage and, voila…I witnessed him moving on his own for the FIRST TIME IN HIS LIFE.

No arms yet..but we’re inchstoning forward!

Owen’s new toy (yes, I meant Owen, not Nathan 😉

Just because

Belle’s new swing 😉 She melts whenever she’s on the hammock..it must remind her of her wings…

Giving “eating out” a whole new meaning

Spreading fairy dust

Finally that little ball of nuisance is out of mommy’s arms…hooray, she’s mine!

After an appointment with her personal stylist aka grandma

Not on purpose.

It’s just that…after saying farewell…I realized, I’m not ready to give up this blog! I enjoy it too much!

So a couple of people suggested – compromise!

Just change your frequency, intensity and duration – blog shorter, less often, and without feeling so responsible. Have I every mentioned common sense isn’t my forte? Or that I tend to live in extremes? If I haven’t, I bet you’ve figured it out by now 😉

So anyways, my plan is to continue this blog, but taking it easy.

So today, I leave you with this video: